eh eh nothing else i can say

you came up this morning
out of nowhere, out of the blue
put a smile on my face for a while, but inside i feel sad
i was wondering, "how can you do this to me?"
you've been disappeared, left me with some questions
do you think, you meant nothing to me?
do you think, i slept well the last 3 days?
do you think, i could easily through the day while i dunno how - where were you?
do you know, i've been crying for feeling frustated about it?
and do you care about me even a bit?

i dont want to be selfish but if you had a problem, at least you can share with me,
not just runaway and keep it by yourself.

honey, i dont think i can do this anymore..
God please help us.. coz i do love him, more than i thought..

Dear God

dear God..

i really need you, right now..
people can see, i'm okay, but sure you know that inside i'm not okay..
i feel so empty..
in fact, i dunno am i happy with this life?

i know i should be thankful for all blessing that you give to me..
but can i ask you more?
can you lead me the way?
where i can find myself, my happiness, my peace and serenity.

i'm so messed up..
please find me, God..

please mind your own business, aunties..

one bad thing when all my aunties are gathering together is gossip.
they will talk about others from head to toe, from friendship to relationship, from family to enemy.
i just dont get it, what's the point of all that stuff.

i must admit, that i hate to be one of their gossip.
once they talked about my behaviour, other time they talked about me being thin or fat, other time the talked about i should get married soon, etc.

anyway, if i'm a shopaholic or a single chick who like to party, i'm not bothering all of you, aunties..
please don't talk about me anymore.. i will let you talk about others, ok..

ps : i love you all, aunties.. but i dont like to be an issue..:p

you're a bullshit

(dedicated to a kind of joke from the past)

who do you think you are?
mr. supernova? so you can play, pick and compare all the women you want?
put a "religion" mask on your face so u think can hide your dirty mind and heart?

i will tell you..
you're just a joke..
used to and always be..
and for your own good, fuck off!!

ps : love is not a bullshit, you're a bullshit..